received news that an ex-student of mine fell to her death. police are still investigating the cause of death. we are not sure whether she committed suicide or someone pushed her from the 18th floor. she was sniffing glue before it happened.

flashbacks of my time in that class.. it was a challenging class to teach.. but they were all so precious to me.. every single student i have have ever taught or am still teaching are equally precious to me.. and to think that a life is taken, a young life, she is sec 2 this year.. this comes as a piece of really devastating news to me.

she still had such a long walk ahead of her. so much of life yet untouched. so much she havent experienced. so many pple she havent met. i wonder, if i were still teaching her, wld things have turn out differently? wld there be tell-tale signs that i cld have spotted?

oh, such a life wasted. just like that, she has gone on to another world. what sorrow she brings to her loved ones, her family, her bf who is in sec 3 in the same school, whom i have taught before too.

sigh. life's that fragile huh. too fragile to my liking.

and one of my aunt's been diagnosed with cancer. parents are visiting her now. hmm..

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blown away by Arrow service last night..

how i love God so much. just because He first loved me. how comforting to know that He knows me inside out. He hears my every whisper. He knows my every grudge. He sees my ugliness. He knows and understands what i'm struggling with.

and yet. He does not judge. He still loves me for who I am.

Im crossing over. Im crossing over to the land He has prepared for me.

His love pursued me from the start and arrested my heart. Love everlasting, Grace unrelenting.

Im gonna pray big things. He delights in it. only when i cannot, then He can.

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